The ring. Ahhh…the ring.
I think that J.R.R. Tolkien was not just a great writer. He was a genius.
His character, Gollum in “The Lord of the Rings”, was probably the greatest example in all literature about what truly happens to our character when we spend our lives chasing something that we want. It’s not pretty. Gollum wasn’t pretty. In the end, he was a completely degraded person. Strangely, he didn’t seem to mind, because as long as he was alive, and as long as there was the ring to find, hold, and even kill for, he had a purpose. His purpose didn’t include a decent life, love, or other people. He only chased the ring.
I WANTS IT!
Last week I wrote a blog post about how I was not willing to be preyed upon by vanity publishing companies trying to get me to pay them to publish my book.
Would you think I was crazy if I told you that I almost went for it? Yes, for a moment there, I thought only about the thrill of being able to tell my Mom and sister what month the book would be out. I wanted their approval. I wanted my Mom to see my name in print. I just WANTED IT.
But that’s silly because I’ve been published for years and she’s already seen my name in print. Just not on the cover of a book in her local Barnes and Noble.
BUT I WANTS IT!
And I do. But I what I have discovered, is that I’m not willing to get it at all costs. If you’ve seen “The Lord of the Rings”, you know that Gollum actually killed his friend for the ring. He also tried to kill a few Hobbits. In the end, even as the ring was about to be destroyed, he gnawed off a Hobbit’s finger just to get the ring.
Really? Seriously? All that for a dangerous ring that caused darkness in your heart and made you want to hurt anything that would try to take it away?’
A ring was never worth turning dark inside.
For me, I know that, as much as I want to get this book out of my door and onto a book store shelf, there are some key things I refuse to do:
- Fill the book with all kinds of tawdry tidbits just to get it sold
- Associate with book publishers that peddle that type of stuff
- Write a several thousand dollar check just to have someone’s imprint on the manuscript
Desire is one thing. Desperation is another. Gollum taught me that.
Besides, I wouldn’t want to die for my dream.
I especially wouldn’t want to bite off a finger then fall into a pit of fiery lava.
I’m sure my Remi hair weave would burn up in the process and I paid good money for that hair.
Dear reader, what do you desire? What are you willing to sacrifice? What are you UNWILLING to sacrifice?